Ok, so I have been trying to figure out what to make as my first post. I have so many crazy stories to tell yet I don’t know where to start. I don’t know what to begin with. So I thought I would start here. I would be honest with the fact that the posts I have as drafts are probably going to take a while. Maybe I will post in parts. Who knows to be honest. I m hoping I post this one! lol!!!
What is it that makes it so hard? Why do I tend to question and overthink things one day and the next just roll with it and not care? I have found that my adult brain is weird. I have so many reaction phases as I process through situations. Kind of like the steps of grief. When I am towards the end of them, I usually find a positive solution or reaction and move on with my life.
And then I wonder if anyone else feels the way I do or goes through all of these steps. I say all of this as I started making this blog website years ago and quit. Then I started it back up again a few weeks ago and STILL haven’t posted a post! I mean, I have the homepage and about me page done but what does that do? Am I afraid of what people might think or say? Is that slowing me down? To be honest, I am probably just creating an online journal that will only be read by me. So why should I worry?
So, here I go. I am going to make this my first post. Yes! I am insecure about it all. Yes! I will worry and fret. BUT, I know getting all of this off my chest will help me and maybe someone else if they read it. So here I go posting this as now I need to go figure out what dinner will be as we carpool kids to all the practices and activities tonight.